Friday, January 25, 2013

We are young, we are strong. We're not looking for where we belong.

Since I have no idea of how to start this blog, I'm starting with the fact that I got to meet my amazing boyfriend's mother today. I had no idea that she was going to stop by Culver's today, and I don't think that Jeff knew either but I'm not entirely sure of that. But anyways, I had been helping a customer when she walked in and the customer I was helping answered their cellphone real quick so I just decided to greet her thinking she was a customer (fyi I was on register 1, away from the cold of drive....teehee). Then for some reason, I see Jeff out of the corner of my eye come up front from the kitchen; as he's approaching the lady I just greeted (mom), I suddenly realized the resemblence and find out it's his mom. As they talk, Sheila comes up next to me and asks, "Who's your man talking to?" I respond with, "I believe it's his mom." Sheila then goes, "That's his mom? Damn, she's pretty." "I know, right?!"
I felt like an idiot honestly. See, Jeff had shown me pictures of his mom and sister on Facebook before so I should have recognized her, but I was just in shock with how pretty she is.
So back to what I was saying, Jeff and his mom come over to register 1, Jeff introduces us, and I shake her hand. We talk for a little bit. And from what I'm told by Jeff and Sheila, she approves of me as a girlfriend for Jeff from what she knows. I ask how they think that, the reasoning I'm then given is that she gave me a good-bye hug. :)
After Mrs. Tate leaves, Dustin and Jerry (back in the kitchen) through the window ask who we were talking to, Jeff says again that it was his mom. Dustin's jaw literally drops and goes, "that's your mom?! She's hot!"
I just love how my coworkers respond to certain things.

In other news, Erin, Jason, Jeff, and I get to move into a new trailer. Again, I do know that some of you are thinking, 'Kelsey, it's too soon! You should wait!' and stuff along those lines. Don't get me wrong, I do appreciate the opinions; but as I have told some of the people who were very high against it I am an adult and I can make my own decisions. Sure some in the past have been reckless and stupid and childish, but I've got a really good feeling about this. I mean Jeff makes me feel amazing and beautiful! As I've said in my last blog, I'm more secure about myself now and I'm actually healthier than I've been in a long time since I've stopped puking my guts out. I really do feel as if Jeff is going to be in my life for a long period of time. And sure some will frown upon living together but how else are you supposed to find out how a person really is than in their comfort place called home. I'm young but I have seen many marriages in my life that don't work out because the two people couldn't get along at home because they've never "lived" around them. For those that still think badly about it, go right ahead, be my guest, I don't really care. I've thought long and hard about this, I know it's a very grown-up decision and a serious one at that. I do love him very very much and I think it's a new milestone in my life, one that's going to happen eventually so I figure "why not now?" and "why not with Jeff?"

Saturday, January 5, 2013

Better Days

So a recent update on my life...

A. I tried to get to go back to taking classes this next semester that's supposed to start on Thursday technically (would have been Monday for me, attempted to take a 7am and an 8am class), but unfortunately I didn't get my registration in on time. So I have to wait another semester at least to take any sort of class again.

B. The rumors are true. I did break up with Daniel recently. We had many differences and they weren't apparent to both of us until only last month. We had different views of the world; different goals; and in general just headed in complete opposite directions. 
I was surprised actually, I thought getting my heart broken again wouldn't hurt me. But it did. I didn't cry of sadness, just of frustration and anger based on previous emotions and thoughts.


Anyways,
C. I've found a very loving young man whose a really good friend actually. Jefafa, as I like to call him. Yes, I am crazy and yes, I am crazy about him. Tall, dark, and yes handsome (even if he thinks otherwise =P). Around him, I laugh; I can't help but to always smile, and I feel no care or worry in the world. I can eat normally again and keep it down. I don't fear the world. I'm comfortable with who I am and how I behave. I don't feel judged at all. I don't feel the need to hurt myself to get rid of a conflicting pain. He's basically like a comfort blanket. He's wonderful.
I can tell now, a bunch of you are probably shaking your heads and saying/thinking something like, "Kelsey, you are young. Just have fun!" or "you're moving on too fast!" But as all of you should know me as me, I don't slow down in life.

 D. I now have two tattoos. For those of you who didn't know about the first one, it is in the middle of my back between my shoulders. Its of Fleur de lis. It's not like solid, it's outline of it with light shading just along the inside of the lines. My second one is on my right side ribs. It's from the book, Alice in Wonderland by Lewis Carroll. And pretty much describe me to the core.
 


So as a conclusion to this blog post. Everyone take the time to forgive. Forgive those who have hurt you, forgive those who have hurt your friends. And if you've done wrong, apologize, forgive yourself for doing wrong and move on. 
"So take these words and sing out loud cause everyone's forgiven now. Because tonight's the night the world begins again."            -The Goo Goo Dolls (Better Days)